i still dont know how this thing really works. today should be a fun day although i am sad i cant watch suburban legends play over in disney. :[ but im hanging out with jackie and tony which is pretty damn awesome. i hope tony likes his dino. i need to cash my check. immm really not into working today truely i am not. i want to dance and sing along to sl before they leave me forever. i dont know how im going to put up with work and school. its going to be hard since i still need to make up classes from last year. but hey im half way done and its all good. then the high school drama ends and the real work begins.
i wonder why life has to be so fucked up sometimes. i mean really... ill share a secret with the world. i want to be perfect. i want to be able to look good to everyone. get straight As in school. be all my friends best friends and not have any issues with any of them. i want to sing. i want to model. i want to play guitar. i want talent, skill, something that i can offer the world. i have nothing to offer, all i do is care about things that dont care for me.
people ask me why i care about animals so much, why not. they say that if given the chance, any animal would kill and eat me. so what, i bet they would. in any case, i care for anything thats alive. a fish, a dog, a god damn flea. i care. i care about people too. "treat others the way youd like to be treated" i go by that. i care for those who hate me. i wish well in the people who wish me dead. am i retarded? maybe. point is i care. so to those who think i dont, this is prove.
idk why im going off on this thing. but hey not bad for a second blog.